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I can look back on everything and feel amazement that we managed to get this far.
But on the inside I'm not amazed, I'm broken in half.

I can't speak, I don't know how to form words to describe it and I don't want to try. You were closer to me then anyone in my entire life.

And I'm flesh and bone,
and I give too much,
and I'm flesh and bone,
and I give so much,
and then I'm empty and dragging myself on and on and on until the pavement skins me down to the bone, and I have no more to give, when I myself can hardly live
my life

my soul is starving for a way out
now

and im not angry, i love you. I meant all i said yesterday
but i will lose myself if we keep walking down the same road
and i won't be the girl you fell in love with anymore
i'll be broken
and you'll forget how to love me
and i'll stay broken, and then lose contact with who i am, and who we are.

im not a stepping stone,
and i will never trust you the same way
i knew that long ago
but i could never admit it

somethings never right, over and over again i waste myself trying to believe that it is. over and over and over until i'm weathered and worn

so please do the best that you can at what you love in life,
please keep fighting the good fight,
the heart-fight,
until you win.
do it for you, and for the God above you,
but don't do it for me,
because I'm not an angel
i can't save you
and i can do no more good then what i already have,

this is the hardest thing i think i've ever done

i will never forget you,
and never forget your name
when people ask about you
i'll tell them every good thing i know,
because you're not dark, you're not bad,
you're a big heart growing up in dry land,
and you need the Creator of both of us,
you need to set your life down in front of Him and take your walk seriously,
because it's not a game, and there's no other opportunities left.
I can't save you, I can't help, I can do nothing but keep you from changing,
because as long as I'm with you, i'll be the pillar you lean on,
i'm no pillar, i'm not that strong.
I'm not an angel, you know,

I will always love you, though.