Part 1 (intro)He woke up, sprawled out on the glossy, hard-wood floor of the hallway. His white cotton tank top was moist, and stuck to his torso like a blanket. In the back room, the dryer shook-back and forth, tumbling boy-jeans and old t-shirts around in circles. He picked his sore and lethargic body up off the floor and questioned whether or not he left his conscience in the laundry room with the rest of his t-shirts. "God, am I still drunk?" He thought, fighting the urge to stick his head in the laundry basket, instead of forcing himself to finish cleaning his apartment.Part 1 (intro) by ZahrahLeona
It was sometime around eight in the evening, late in august. The shriveled up scrap of paper in one of his jean-pockets told him he had a doctors appointment at ten the next day. The dates and appointments couldn't seem to hold his reality together. It felt as if time was only an imaginary idea. "Andy remember where you are" was scribbled on the back of his note, in his handwriting. He tried so hard to blame hangovers for his d
What!What destroyed me for a momentWhat! by ZahrahLeona
took everything away
but the cover of the grief from the comfort of today
in what i don't know,
i find great trembling
my focus is destroyed by what I struggle to control
emptiness follows the suffocation of my senses
drowning, holding back the need for release of
replaced so quickly by good intentions only
but self murdered from my own confusion,
trying so hard to find happiness when something always feels wrong
Let me awaken once moreLet my love awaken, for you.Let me awaken once more by ZahrahLeona
If God knows for once it will succeed, now with my better understanding of myself and my intentions
let me feel compassion again,
only this time for a soul that longs to give what is received.
i want to love you the way I used to love, but for different reasons,
with different motivations,
not to feel right within myself,
but because I have my empathy flourish and overflowing for you,
the way god loves his children,
unspeakably simply unfathomable innocently caring.
Let that kind of love, awaken again within me. safely, calmly,
For your soul feels alive, it radiates passion, emotion, response, love,
it is alive.
It is full of natural heart and lungs and mind of sorts with all it's imperfections and doubts.
it is alive, and real, and full and desperate for understanding and serenity and valiance.
Let me awaken once more,
to do this with honest intentions, to my god, to myself, and to everyone else.
Please...Give me hope,Please... by ZahrahLeona
God give me hope,
I've lost hope in human love,
I've lost love in human hope,
I need something greater then what the world could offer to fix me,
because nothing would work.
I need something more powerful then anything a human could provide,
because nothing human can pierce this wall.
Her AgonyOh my baby, this river can not console you,Her Agony by ZahrahLeona
there is nothing in this world that can motivate you to feel happiness.
the deepest of beautiful agony has overcome your soul with longing desire
to cry out in despair, for it weighs down heavy on your soul,
you feel nothing on the outside, my girl,
because what you are hiding inside your cove of flesh
is the void of every emotion but one, and it's a force that can't be reckoned with,
There is nothing more you have that can bring you true happiness, you have with you
a genuine true emptiness, that only the creator of the universe can satisfy.
You have lost everything, and the affections that came with everything you lost,
and if you had no God, you would be lost in a drug,
lost in a sexual fantasy of destructiveness,
lost in yourself, and you're sanity wouldn't be able to find you.
You tried to warn those around you, that something inside was dying,
the more they pressed on with you, the more they took you down.
For years you warned of
Men - the Victims of PowerI once felt that a woman was vulnerableMen - the Victims of Power by ZahrahLeona
because you could steal her.
you could fight her against her will,
you could force yourself into her senses when she willed it not.
That men had power over women.
Then I realized,
a woman's body is as weak as a man's mind,
you can steal her just as she can steal your ability to refuse,
you can fight her against her will,
but she can change your will, she can seduce your body against your mind,
and you can seduce her mind against her body.
You can force yourself into her senses, but she can empty you of yours.
Men and women equally have power over each other,
a man is not immune to being taken advantage of, he is only told he is.
A womens' mind can refuse rape that her physical strength cannot,
a mans' mind can't refuse rape the way his physical strength can, therefor becoming victim to desires that he doesn't want to have.
We are all possible victims,
we are all responsible for protectin
I Will Find PeaceTwice upon my chest I felt the burn of battered breath,
A Two-World Heart"I haven't changed much." I laughed, forcing myself to smile. "No, you're always Red, that's for sure! Constantly goofy." One of my old friends remarked. For a few hours, I'd be surrounded by happy memories; here I am, visiting my past, and having a good time with people I thought I wouldn't see again.
You (A love Poem)You,
One more Breath, (You're The Reason That I Fight)One more breath, just one more week to clean up the debris. With your callused hands, you reach towards the sky, pulling it closer to your chest. Heaven lay's at the end of your finger-tips but your feet are blistered from memories. I can hear you, I can hear you screaming at the top of your lungs, and your eyes are full of fire and in the darkness you're yearning for the light. No one else can imagine but my hand's in yours, no one else can fathom but I'm fighting in your wars. Some say it's like fire and water but baby I can't put you out, I'm a flame just like you and together we'll rise together and burn these obstacles right to the ground.